वो पल कितने सुन्दर लगते है॥
वो पल कितने सुन्दर लगते है॥
वो पल कितने सुन्दर लगते है॥
वो पल कितने सुन्दर लगते है॥
wo pyari baatein,
wo chand ko niharana
Posted by SAHITYIKA at 8:47 AM 3 comments
Posted by SAHITYIKA at 6:45 AM 7 comments
To,
The Dearest Husband
I am writing something right now in train. Because if I will try later may be I can’t write it in the same way.
Its now 5 Months and 10 days and its your birth day today. You could have enjoyed very much in Tikamgarh with all, but still only b/c of my wish you came to Jhansi. I didn’t give you any gift. I know everybody expects. If I place myself in your place. I could have expected much more. And what I did for you?? Nothing..
I am realizing each and every day.. that I am not worth you. Isn’t it right? You are so hardworking, generous, open hearted and I am not. Just now I was thinking why I am so??
You know I am care less, self oriented kind of girl, that is what I have known about me in last 10 months after meeting you. I don’t have the quality of hiding my emotions. My mood goes off, when you give importance to others more than me, especially to girls. Yes, Yes !! I am jealous. But I can’t help it. May be because I had seen so many dreams of my dream boy and I got that. It happens so rarely. Isn’t it? I don’t want to loose you. It may sound so filmy, but that’s the truth.
When ever you become angry on me, that is the worst time for me. I always try to ask you if I have done something wrong , when ever I feel there is a chance. But some times I do things unknowingly and even if I tell you that I didn’t do that knowingly, you won’t believe me. And I cant do any thing to make you believe that. I don’t know what exactly to do at times, how to talk? What to talk? I have always asked you to tell me and I will do. But don’t be angry on me. That is all what I can say.
I am trying to be worth you. But please share things with me. Don’t have things in your heart. There were so many things I wanted to tell you. But not able to remember what were they? What I can ask is just to trust me. I will be what you want me to be. But give me some time.
How can I be happy without you?? I am happy only b/c of you. You gave me chance to live my childhood again. I did so many things in last 5 months for which I wished for my last 22 years. I am so thankful to you. I want you to be happy too. But I am ……
From
Your loving wife
Posted by SAHITYIKA at 7:23 AM 3 comments
Posted by SAHITYIKA at 4:01 AM
So finally after a long time I am again here. In last 3 months life has changed dramatically.
23rd Dec, Yes this was the day I met him ( my mom asked me to meet him, But I was not interested in marriage that much. Just went to fulfill my mom’s wish.). But now we are engaged. My engagement was on 21st March.
Today sitting in office I wrote a poem. How life changed? How I feel now? How I feel about him?
Koun hai jo aa gaya, Zindagi me chha gaya
Gam sare bhool kar, Muskurana sikha gaya
Sath chal ke raah me , Rasta dikha gaya
Pyar itna de diya ki, Man kahe to sath rah
Ban ke thandi hawa, Tu har pal mere sath bah
Chand ban tu, Chandani banungi tere sath me
Suraj ban tu, Roshani banungi tere sath me
Prashn ek hi chhya hai , Koun hai jo aaya hai
Koun hai jo aaya hai, Zindgai me chhaya hai।
PS: I will be sharing all my 3 months experience with all of you. So keep waiting. .. :)
Posted by SAHITYIKA at 6:37 AM 9 comments
Zindagi ne ab ek naya mod liya
sachche ko sachcha naa rahne diya
cheen kar bachpan bada bana diya
isne bachche ko bachcha naa rahne diya
apni khushiyo ki khatir
hme bhi shatranj ka mohara bana diya
naa rahne diya haathi ki
seedhi chal hm chal sake
bana kar vajeer hamko bhi
tedi chal chalna sikha diya...
Posted by SAHITYIKA at 3:12 AM 14 comments
So this is all about caching. Now let’s make a program. Shall I continue?? Yes, now open …………….
I can’t listen any more. Feeling sleepy. Eyes being closed. No control at all. Can’t listen what mam is telling. Every word collide my ear and faded away. Everything became gloomy. I just can’t concentrate in class. That is what always happens with me.
Hey Tamnna, wake up yaar. Let’s solve these online quizzes.
I said: ok let’s try.
So this is the answer. Click it.
Yes, it’s right. But why I don’t know?? Felt unhappy.
1 and half hour extra after class. Solving quiz because exam is just few days away. Immense tension.
Hey Bharath, my head is paining. This pain na.. wont leave me. What to do??
Don’t worry Tamnna. Go home and take medicines.
Back at home.
Hey Divi, I m going to sleep. Still having headache.
Trying to sleep. After few hours…
My head started paining too hard. Just at a single point in my head, it felt like some one was hammering and I can’t do any thing. I woke up and got sited on my bed.
Oh god! What to do?? What’s happening with me? I just can’t tolerate this pain?
Felt like vomiting. Went to bathroom. Stomach twisted. Whole body started paining.
Immense pain.
I can’t tolerate this pain. My roomie is sleeping I can’t disturb her.
So many dreadful thoughts in mind.
Will it be possible for me to see this morning??
What will happen with my roomie if something goes wrong?
How will mamma papa feel?
Please god, help me to overcome this pain.
Finally after having a pain relief I got some rest. Next day I went to see doctor and he told me that I got migraine.
Oh god! How can this happen to me??
I told mamma, when I was ok. Thought of calling her that night. But what was the use??
On 16th oct, I had my exam n guess what??
I flunked just by margin of 3 marks. While coming out of examination room I felt nothing. I called mom and started crying.
21st is the retest. I have to prepare for that.
Back to my room, I am not able to control my emotions. Talking to my friend and crying.
Got a call from papa.
Hey betu! How are you? Don’t take tension. We are always with you.
Haa papa! I am ok. No problem. (still crying, but wont let him know.)
Next day, got a message from mummy. (When things go beyond your capabilities have faith in god’s grace.)
What new in that message?? But tears started falling. How much they care for me?
How much tense they are because of me?
Oh God! Please do some thing. I don’t want to be a reason of there tension. While thinking all this I wrote a poem. Hope it must be significant for all of you.
Dooriya bahut kuch sikha deti hai..
Gum ko chhipana aur jhoota khush hona sikha deti hai..
Ek kaante ki chubhan per rone wale ko..
Badi chot per bhi muskurana sikha deti hai..
Zindagi ka dastoor yun hi chalta rahta hai..
Zindagi yu hme bada hona sikha deti hai..
Pass rah kar jinko naa samjha apna..
Door rah kar unki mehtta bata deti hai..
Yu bahut kuch dikha kar dooriya hame..
Zindagi zeena sikha deti hai..
So this is the way. How life changes.. :)
Posted by SAHITYIKA at 10:46 PM 10 comments