I believe in the imagination. What I cannot see is infinitely more important than what I can see.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Trust.. (विश्वास)

“To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.”


Thanx dear,
Today you made me realize that I m not even a friend of yours. I am not someone to be trusted.

I hope you remember the incident when we were new in our relationship and once when we were chatting you asked me my pic. But I declined. You were hurt so much. You didn’t even talk to me for some time .Any how I convinced u that what I did was not wrong. B/c at that time I was afraid that my pic could be used for wrong purpose. b/c that day only I read a news regarding misuse of pics. After knowing this, u were convinced. Why I m telling u this now?? What’s the significance? I know at that time when I didn’t trust u, u was hurt badly.

Now today, when u indirectly said that what ever emotions I show for u its all a kind of show-off, its not from bottom of my heart. What could I have said in reply, I can’t make some one trust me forcefully? What could I have done to prove it?? Even before this incident u once said that whatever I ask u to do or whatever I ask you not to do ,b/c its good or bad for you, “u thought that I was pretending. I didn’t care for u, I pretend that I care for u.” oh dear! I can’t explain n I just can’t prove that all those things I say to u its from my heart not something else. But how to make u understand don’t know.

It hurts, it hurts too much, when someone don’t believe u, someone doubts your feelings. But I know I can not make you understand. U can never feel the pain…

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thanx dear,
आज तुमने मुझे ये एहसास करवा दिया कि मैं तुम्हारी दोस्त भी नही, मैं विश्वास के काबिल ही नही॥

शायद तुम्हे याद हो वो दिन , जब हमारा ये रिश्ता नया नया था, और chatting करते वक्त जब तुमने मुझसे मेरी फोटो मांगी थी, मैंने मना कर दिया था। तुम्हे बहुत बुरा लगा था। कुछ वक्त तक तुमने मुझसे बात भी नही की थी। मैंने किसी तरह तुम्हे समझाया कि मैं ग़लत नही थी। क्योंकि मैं डर गई थी कि मेरी फोटो का ग़लत उपयोग न हो। क्योकि उसी दिन मैंने अख़बार में एक ऐसी ही ख़बर पढ़ी थी। यह सब जान कर तुम नोर्मल तो हो गए। लेकिन मैं ये सब तुमसे अब क्यो कह रही हूँ?? इसकी क्या जरुरत है?? मैं जानती हूँ उस वक्त जब मैंने तुम पर विश्वास नही किया था तुम्हे बहुत बुरा लगा था।

लेकिन आज, जब तुमने अप्रत्यक्ष तरीके से यह जताया कि " मैं तुम्हारे लिए जो भी भावनाए दिखाती हूँ वो सब दिखावा है, ये सब मैं दिल से नही करती। मैं क्या कह सकती थी जवाब में? मैं तुमसे जबरजस्ती तो नही कर सकती कि तुम मुझपर विश्वास करो, और मैं इसे सत्य सिद्ध करने करने के लिए कर भी क्या सकती हूँ??
इससे पहले भी एक बार तुमने मुझसे कहा था कि तुम्हे लगता है कि " मैं तुम्हे जो भी करने को कहती हूँ या कुछ करने से रोकती हूँ , सिर्फ़ तुम्हारी भलाई के लिए , वो सब भी तुम्हे दिखावा लगता है , कभी सच नही लगा। तुम्हे लगता है कि मैं तुम्हारा अच्छा नही सोचती, बस ऐसा करने का दिखावा करती हूँ। " और मैं इसे सिद्ध करने के लिए कुछ कर भी नही सकती।

बुरा लगता है, बहुत बुरा लगता है, जब कोई आप पर विश्वास ना करे, आपकी भावनाओ पर शक करे , लेकिन मैं जानती हूँ की तुम्हे ये समझाने के लिए मैं कुछ नही करती सकती। तुमने कभी उस कष्ट को महसूस नही कर सकते।

58 comments:

AlbelaKhatri.com said...

nice !
nice !
really nice !

Sneha said...

well written.

दिगम्बर नासवा said...

सुंदर लिखा है.......पर मेरा मानना है कोशिश तो करनी चाहिए अपना पक्ष समझाने की

chirag said...

vishvas kisi bhi rishtey ki dhadkan hain

Arv said...

:)

an honest post... some people do make us feel that way in our lives... but we just have to move on when nothing else can be done :)

take care da... cheers...

paramveer said...

hey thats nt good ......tuje kuch to batana chahiye usse ...y so....

btw i like ur honesty.....

lol

Priya said...

good post! In this post as you presented your female character.....she did as a proper gal should do...

I think we should leave the things on time.

अक्षय-मन said...

aap apni jagaah bikul sahi hain......
aur fir kisi tarhaan ki koi baat kya jab aap khud main saksham hain......
अक्षय-मन

aleem azmi said...

very nice post ....u have completely wrotes....its touches me deeply of my heart ..keep it up

GOD bless u

aleem azmi

SAHITYIKA said...

@albela khatri ji
thank you..

@sneha..
thanx dear

SAHITYIKA said...

@digambar nasawa ji
samjhane ki koshish??? uski jarurat kya hai?? bhavnao ki gahraiya apne aap samjhi jaati hai..kisi k samjhane se samjh nahi aati...

SAHITYIKA said...

@chirag..
yes thats right ...

@arv
thanx yaar..
but u knw it hurts very much..
we can keep on moving forward .. but some remembrances creep in mind n make life vulnerable..

SAHITYIKA said...

@ Paramveer
kuch kya batana chahiye yaar.. kuch batane ko hi nahi... :(

Priya
we should leave things??
will try that ..

SAHITYIKA said...

Akhshay Man
Thanx for support..
bt i was not able to understand what u wanted to say..???

Aleem Azmi
thank u..

manivannan said...

“To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.” WOW, lovely lines and very true.

I have a lesson to learn from your post :=) So thanks for that.

Happy blogging!

manivannan said...

“To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.” WOW, lovely lines and very true.

I have a lesson to learn from your post :=) So thanks for that.

Happy blogging!

pinkZz said...

well expressed..
but u need not b disappointed because sometimes things are not said intentionally..
only we take them in the wrong way.
so possibilities are there..

keep smiling :)

योगेन्द्र मौदगिल said...

blog sunder hai

rachnatmakta se paripoorn

badhai..

woyaadein said...

कोई दूसरा हमारी बातें माने या ना माने, ये बात हमारे लिए कोई मायने नहीं रखती, लेकिन हमारे अपने जब हम पर विश्वास करना छोड़ देते हैं तो हम अपनों के बीच में भी बेगानों से ज्यादा कुछ नहीं रह जाते.....बहुत दुखता है दिल इस बात पर....सुंदर प्रस्तुति......

साभार
हमसफ़र यादों का.......

मुसाफिर जाट said...

बढ़िया लिखा है, लेकिन हिंदी की मात्रा बढा दो.

Amal Bose said...

rightly said..
being trusted is a much greater compliment than being loved..
really touching article, loved it
take care :)

eye-in-sty-in said...

no Comment :-)

Mayz said...

u jus wrote exavtly wat m goin thru rite now...

feelings r to b shown or felt?? y do v have to display our emotions to prove they exist??

u cant pretend care...tell ur fren...hez jus being paranoid...

sry if dat was a lil harsh

प्रसन्न वदन चतुर्वेदी said...

your post is good and interesting.....

ZiLliOnBiG said...

Emotional and straight from heart. You have done what every girl would do, and not trust a person on his face value. Even the first time i asked for the photograph of mmy girlfriend(now my wife), she refused. I too felt bad, but i understood her need for trust.
trust builds over time and as you have rightly said its all too imperative in a relationship.Keep writing.Cheers:))

विवेक सिंह said...

बढिया लिखा !

Dhawal said...
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Dhawal said...
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Dhawal said...

I guess once you win the trust of a person...it will take a lot to create a space of doubt in his/her heart. But the problem is people start expecting more before they gain a level of certainity or trust in another person's heart and here they fail.
Maybe the preson who hurted you is someone who doesn't trust himself/herself too.
Eh... Blame this world.

SAHITYIKA said...

@manivannan
thats gud .. u r always welcome.. :)

SAHITYIKA said...

Pinkzz
hi dear..
thanx..
i hope tht those were not said intentionally.. may be i took them in wrong way. bt it was nt first time.. if something happens again n again thn it proves.. that something is thr in mind.. i hope that this won't happen again.. :)

SAHITYIKA said...

Yogendra maudagil
thank you.. keep visiting.. :)

wo yaadein
me too think that.. whn u think tht some one is very close to u.. n if he/she says tht they dont trust u.. whn u were fully devoted with ur relationship..it really hurts..

SAHITYIKA said...

@musafir jaat

thanx.. hindi ki matra badha do?? iska matlab samjhi nai? koi kami rah gayi kya??

@amal bose

thank you...
keep visiting.. :)

SAHITYIKA said...

@eye-in-sty-in
hi spike..
thnx for no comment.. ha ha ha .. :P

SAHITYIKA said...

@Mayz..

hey.. no need of sorry..in frndship. (i hope tht we r frnds.. :D)

yaa. u r right. we cant prove tht feeling r true .. frm heart.. they hav to feel it..
i hope tht ppl cn understand this..
thax for ur support..
keep visiting..:)

SAHITYIKA said...

@zillion big
hey .. such incidents happens in everyone's life.. the thing is that . how we take them... how much we trust some one.. how much we understand..
thanx for sharing ur views.... :)

Abhishek Prasad said...

ek tute dil ki bahut hi majboot saastan... shayad maine sach kaha... but over all, mujhe bahut achha laga... khas kar tumhare blog ka graphic... keep writting... n kabhi thodi fursat mile to http://ab8oct.blogspot.com/ par ek halki dastak dena...

Aw.S.M said...

Oye u dont have to convince anyone to trust u...its only if the person turns around on his own that he truly trusts u..so give him space and time...he ll find the path that leads to u..that leads to trusting u :)

luv
amith

anupama said...

dear sahityika,
thanks for visiting my site.and so happy someone else is sailing in the same boat.worse things happened with me and i'm tired of proving things.today i was strong enough to say,alvida........
and many points in your profile agree with mine.
nice landing up here to know there is alike minded soul!
keep writing.....
sasneham,
anu

Pallav said...

very well written
thanks for the comment...on my blog..
thanks for dropping by
Pallav

Pallav said...

hey i m gonna follow u...
i loved it

Pallav
www.pallav-destiny.blogspot.com

‘नज़र’ said...

great blog, and beautiful posts

ARVI'nd said...

bahut pyari kavita thi

Dev said...

Very nice, realy its touching...
Regards..
DevPalmistry

deeps said...

thanks for those words ...
i m almost getting bak to the path ...

Ankita said...

It's really touchy...!
Well, time heals everything. So dun worry abt. mistrust and misunderstandings..!! It's lyf and it happens..!!
Der r ppl who dun understand true meaning of care and trust..!! And der is only 1 way 2 tackle such ppl..n d way is - dun teach dem ne'thin, leave dem on der own n let dem learn demselves..!! And den also if dey dun care den my dear dey r simply not worth being a part of ur beautiful lyf..!! You both need 2 part ways..!! That's it..!! :)

satish kundan said...

आपकी हर पोस्ट जब मैं पढता हूँ तो जैसे खो सा जाता हूँ.....और हाँ आपसे कहना है जब भी किसी पे विश्वास कीजिये तो कभी अविश्वास की भावना मन में मत लाइए...मैंने एक नई पोस्ट डाली है आपका स्वागत है...

Deepika Gupta said...

it was toucing and very well expressed... And no doubt true too...

SAHITYIKA said...

@ Abhishek ..
thank you.. keep visiting..

@ Aw. S. M.
Hey thanx for suggestion..
i wont try to make him understand. i knw its something tht comes frm heart.. u cant make some one trust forcefully.. :)

SAHITYIKA said...

@ Anupama..
hey hi dear..
nice to see that someone feels the same.. but still i wish..tht this should not happen with ny one..
so dear.. keep smiling. n keep sharing.. :)

@ Pallav
thanx to u too.. :)

SAHITYIKA said...

@ Nazar
thanx dear..

@ Arvind..

thank you.. keep visiting..

@ DEV
thank you to u too

@ Deeps..
You r always welcome.. :)

muZer.. :-) said...

vry touchin,, Sahityika.. yeaa once trust is broken,, the relationship changes forever!!

but i guess,, time heals da pain..!!

sawan said...

how gud it wud have been if emotions cud be controlled. how good it wud hav been if minds cud be read! how good it wud hav been if convincing was easy. dear, never drop a tear for something which is not in ur control cos you couldnt have done it better if given a chance. and sweets, never drop a tear for something which you could change cos you always have anotr chance to make things better. smile against ur shadow and see the reflection. u take care grl.

sawan said...

nicw selection of pics!

Vijay Kumar Sappatti said...

amazing poem ....simply great work..


meri badhai sweekar karen..
Aabhar
Vijay
http://poemsofvijay.blogspot.com/2009/07/window-of-my-heart.html

http://whysoserioustoday.blogspot.com said...

nice post
it feels great when dreams comes true ... loved tht scooty one
keep blogging :)

പഞ്ചാരക്കുട്ടന്‍.... said...

hai shityika....
this is first time i visiting your blog..... i like the way u presenting your topics....
u did the right.... in this world (it's like coin.. it have a two face... ) how can we believe.... all peoples are selfish ... they dont consider others feelings...

“To be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved.”

the basic bond of every relation is
trust... believe... and open talking.....
think before doing... do sincerely..
nice post......
with love...
DeeP.... ;)

विपिन बिहारी गोयल said...

It is my great pleasure to visit this blog.Everything is fine,only the picture of western people do not match with Indian sentiments.

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