Unanswered Questions...

A room having a double bed, 1 wooden ward robe, a study table, so many books around, some on table, some on bed … . Tamanna having a pillow in her lap, hand on her chin, book on pillow, songs being played in mob. And a fascinating smile on her face with twinkling eyes.
She was thinking… smile on her face told that it was some thing very interesting, something which made her so happy.
“Oh dear! You know how much I miss you when I watch “ Mile Jab Hum Tum”. The story of Nupur and Mayank. The way Mayank stares at Nupur and when Nupur blushes, Oh god, I feel those emotions. I feel it’s me in place of Nupur and it’s you in place of Mayank. My heart starts beating faster. When I think of it, a smile comes on my face.

How much time I spend imagining you…. NO!! you and me.. fighting, walking, talking, having fun together and sometimes just eyes in eyes , in background a soft music. You and me on roof, walking, having hand in hand, my head on your shoulder. Just a thought of all these moments makes me smile, makes me happy. But when will all this happen?? When will u be near me? With me??
The song picturized on Rekha and amitabh of silsila movie come in mind..
Mai aur meri tanhai aksar ye baatein karte hai..tum hoti to kaisa hota..
Tum ye kahti tum wo kahti .. tum is baat per hairan hoti .. tum is baat per hasti.
Tum hoti to aisa hota.. tum hoti to vaisa hota..
Mai aur meri tanhai aksar ye baatein karte hai..
Am I wrong? If I m desperate to get you, to be with you? Some people don’t express their emotions, their desires and I say them , I express them, Is that my mistake?? Why at each and every point, at every work, at most of the moments, I want to tell you that what happened? Why I can keep on listening you hours and hours??
IS THIS YOU?? About whom I m thinking right now. Yes! It can be you and if it’s not you then???”
The smile vanished from the face of Tamanna.
“I love you, but I hate you too. I like you and dislike you too. Oh! I am so confused. What I want? I want you but why I think it’s not possible? I see you in my dreams and always see that you are around me but never with me. Why?? I can’t understand my dreams. I want to tell everything, But something inside me stops me. Oh god! What to do??
Eyes of tamanna filled with tears.
“I know there are so many things that you will never know and may be I will never show…. !”
Tamanna’s mom entered in the room. “ Beta,what happened?” Tamanna said( wiping her tears) “ no mom , nothing.”
Mom “ oh beta, don’t take this much tension of studies.”
Tamanna smiled and thought “ Yes mom, I will not.But these unanswered questions, when will I get the answers?? May be never or may be someday or may be when again I will be thinking like this.. :) “

PS: some one came in ur mind while reading this post?? Are u smiling thinking of him/her. then u really like him/her.
and i caught u.. ha ha ha.. :P